Hey all--This post is not polished, and won't be polished. Most likely I won't "polish" any of the turds on here. No point. Here's what is up:
1) The World: In the US shit is hitting the fan and I have nothing eloquent to say about it. There is no need for me to say anything eloquent about it because you can find many, many very eloquent things being said about it everywhere you look. I defer to the eloquent people. I am sort of using that as an excuse to not put in the work specifically on this blog, but I am not using that as an excuse to not put in the work in the real world. I think that is valid approach because it is what feels best to me in the moment.
2) My World: I'm 29 years old, married, with no kids, two cats and two chinchillas. I have an MFA and teaching certificates and worked in law for a quite a while before I quit in October of last year to pursue teaching. I hated what I was doing, where I worked. I was unhappy, subsequently unhealthy, and it showed. Now I teach community college English. It's exactly a year since I quit law and started my journey in teaching as a profession. But guess what? I am exactly right back in the same position I was this time last year. I don't want to do what I am doing anymore. When I quit law, I knew to go into teaching because that is what I knew, and, I thought, what I really wanted to do. Leaving teaching...I don't have anything else to fall back on. I am, essentially, out of ideas. But I can't stay.
3) Spiritual Community: Before I quit my law job last year, I began a deep personal inquiry and inquiry into all things spiritual and introspective. I am learning and practicing Tarot. I have gained so much knowledge in all thing divination, spirituality, health and wellness, and all of the various interconnections between them. I am still learning--every day. I am still searching, gathering, taking stock, discovering. And all for what? There are so many mixed messages out there in that community. Listen to yourself; What does your gut tell you?; Save your money so that you can leave your shit job; Leave your shit job immediately it brings your frequency down; It's a combination of both--don't do anything too rash but still listen to your intuition; Meditate; Drink this infusion to calm your nervous system; Pull a Tarot spread on it; Scry; Kundalini helps; Journal!....Pretty sure you get the picture.... I've done all of the things. I understand it is a journey and I am still on the ride. That's what this blog is about.
Why am I creating this blog? Dunno. It came to me. I figure if I am on this rollercoaster, many of you probably are too. When I try something, I will let you know, and I will let you know how it goes. Down we go....
